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2011-04-03T17:02:00.002+08:00

You know how it is when you have a favourite restaurant and even though you've only been going there, for let's say, just over a year, there was some problem and they had to close down.

It wasn't just 1 specific item on the menu or any thing in particular, but it was the familiarity and the ease with which you could just speak to the manager and ask for specific things done to your order. It was like home. After years of just making do with generic stuff, this was a huge upgrade.

And it was nourishing and lifted your spirits and gave you a reason to smile.

And just as you're coming into the 2nd year of being a regular at this establishment, something's happened and it's just not the same any more.

So now, it's kinda out of the picture, you just end up looking for a replacement of sorts, a place that can give you that warm, fuzzy welcome and same sense of home. It is not a pretty process.

And then you sorta come across something that's high on the potential list and you feel that perhaps this might be something new to try. But as it turns out, this new joint is unreliable - erratic opening hours and the customer service is pretty crap.

So you end up feeling somewhat needy, and question why you cannot just breathe and go with the flow. Damn this emotional rebound business.

Deep, huh?

On second thoughts, please don't answer that.

Goodbye & Now What

2011-03-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

A week ago today, I attended my grand-aunt's funeral in Singapore. She was 91, and succumbed to renal failure after a 4-week stay in the hospital, and when they could not do anything else for her, 2 more weeks in a hospice.

The last time that she remembered seeing me was a few days before Chinese New Year. I was on a 4-hour layover in Singapore before my connecting flight to KL - I was going to visit friends before CNY - and cabbed to the hospital to see my grandaunt. She had been given morphine to ease her discomfort, but had waken up to see me, and when she realized that it was me, said "Why did you waste money to come see me?" I love how her way of showing affection was self-effacing and a bit too logical. She complained to me about having back pains, and said she didn't know when she would get better. I told her to rest and not worry about that. Then I left to catch my flight to KL. 3 days later, on the even of Chinese New Year, I came back to see her, but she was sleeping a lot. And she was uncomfortable and agitated. When I flew back 3 days later, she was sleeping. On some levels, that's how I want to remember her last days.

Over the past week, I've been looking at old photos and the tears have been quite forceful. See, my grand-aunt was a lovely, kind woman who never raised her voice at me, and was always sweet and good-natured. My grand-aunt had raised my mum, who had lost her mum - my grandmother - when she was 6 months old.

When my sister was 15, she left home and lived with my grand-aunt. On my sister's 50th birthday last Friday, my grandaunt died. Too much to handle, all around.

I'm glad she's resting and no longer in pain. The mourning will continue for some time, I know.

But then there's Herman. I don't know what's the best thing to do, seeing as how even when we are/were together, we had quite separate lives. The intersection is getting narrower by the day, and this health issue he's dealing with scares me and worries me. And is making it challenging to be together.

I don't want to keep saying goodbye...

6 months?

2010-12-06T01:53:00.002+08:00

Has it really been 6 months since I posted something here?

Let's just say that it's been a challenging summer, what with the tempering of realities on many levels. There have been tough days and some even tougher weeks.

And some ugly truths that I've had to contend with, face up to and decide how to move forward on. Whatever doesn't kill you makes you wonder. Truly.

I've also recently marked the 1st year of my being in a relationship. It's still lovely and wonderful and frustrating and scary and all the things that make life interesting. I worry for HT but at the same time, I can only live for the now. And maybe the next week.

And I'm happy to report that my 4th friend welcomed a baby this year, so here's to Lex, Lovella, Brandon & Madeleine - welcome to the club, kids.

It's Raining And I'm Loving It

2010-06-26T12:44:00.003+08:00

An old friend - who I don't really know that well - recently started blogging. A bit late to the game, perhaps, but I guess we all have our timetables.

His most recent blog was about tea and coffee. About how we all have preferences. And what it says about us. I cringed. I rolled my eyes. Is this really that interesting? Yeah, I'm a snob. And a bitch. But you know that.

I'd much prefer to share with you the fact that during my recent visit to Singapore this past week, I was inundated with reunions. I met with my 2 orphaned cousins who I've not met in 15 years (I should get a medal, huh?), a good friend I lost touch with who I've not seen in 20 years or so, and another friend who I've known since I was 7 but have not met in 4 years.

My cousins made me think hard about family. Maybe it's cos' I'm 40 and something's kicked in, but my sis (their step-cousin) and I have decided to contribute a modest amount per month to help with household expenses.

And it was nice that after 20 years, Lay Hoon & I picked up from where we left off. It's true what they say about real friends - and no amount of time or distance can diminish the bond that you have and feel.

As for my friend Asrof, he's now a father of 2, and I'm glad that he's still the same guy I knew when we were 7 and then 17. Yes, gaps are allowed in friendships.

And yes, it is raining and it love it. I find rain very cleansing. And I love it more that I'm indoors.

And I like both coffee and tea. It just depends on what I feel like. No blogging necessary on that.

Have a good weekend.

Forty

2010-06-07T18:00:00.006+08:00

Yup, it's finally here. I'm at Jeff version 4.0.

And this video was put together my friend Eugene, who really outdid himself. It was a good evening, with the right amount of emo, minus the drama.

Here's the video that brought on the low-level water-works.

Commitment

2010-04-04T22:42:00.002+08:00

I think it's finally happened to me.

I'm not sure how this whole thing's gonna go, but I made a commitment to be with one person, and it feels right.

And you know what, I'm thrilled. And scared. And happy. And just going with the flow.

Methinks a short vacation somewhere might be in the works. I'll keep you posted.

Happy Easter.

Changes

2010-03-29T13:15:00.002+08:00

It's funny how changing your relationship status to 'In a relationship' on Facebook, of all places, brought on a barrage of responses and comments from friends who were either surprised, happy, curious or just simply relieved.

Yup, relieved. And such a good feeling. I know there will be good days and bad ahead, but I know, at this moment, that I want them both. I hope I'll be strong enough and mature enough to deal with anything that comes my way. Our way.

HT is such a lovely person and so strong, too, though at the moment, it's not looking that way. I'm determined to be a good partner and friend.

Wish me luck and love.

5 Months In

2010-03-23T00:02:00.002+08:00

Yup, a new milestone for me. Still much to learn, and a long way to go.

But I'm glad that it's happening. And I'm looking forward to what happens next, in a good way.

And it's interesting how the work/life arcs have sorta flipped over.

Restart

2010-03-03T09:10:00.003+08:00

After a week of waiting and trying to not completely lose it, I'm happy to report that a dinner and movie date took place on Monday.

8 days of mixed feelings and tears and hurt and a major rethink was painful but I know was long overdue. It's clear that YH is most probably going to be a major factor in Jeff 4.0. What a way to start the year.

In unrelated news, I received confirmation of my first bonus at work in 7 years. It feels good.

I can exhale on so many levels.

Shaved

2010-03-01T12:48:00.002+08:00

I didn't get to meet YH as planned. He was sick with some tummy ailment.

But I had to shave. I was beginning to look quite unpalatable.

There has been one phone-call, which I wasn't expecting, and there have been a few more text messages and chats on messenger. I'm grateful for all these.

Whatever the outcome, I hope I can be honest and evolve into someone who's better and stronger.

I hate how cliches are all true in times like these.

One Week In

2010-02-28T15:31:00.003+08:00

A week has passed and contact has been re-established, to some extent.

A week that's been equal parts emotional, challenging and draining. It's self-inflicted, yeah, but I've also got a new sense of clarity of what I want. I hope this lesson stays with me.

I've not shaved since I told YH about the bad stuff. The plan is to shave only after we meet again. I'm looking really scruffy. Fingers crossed.

And I Wait

2010-02-24T18:23:00.004+08:00

3 days in. But at least we've got some contact. via msn messenger.

which is good. at least there is contact. yeah. contact is good. I think.

Control Alternate...

2010-02-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

It's been said and done. I can only wait.

Honesty being the best policy so cannot be used in this instance. But then again, some say that I was just being selfish. You know, telling the truth to clear my conscience at the expense of someone's feelings.

I know what I said was sincere. My feelings were/are sincere. But I also know that no matter where the pain came from, it hurts just as bad.

Too many questions. I just want one thing.

I Screwed Up

2010-02-21T19:50:00.002+08:00

So I meet a great sweet fella and after some false starts, we decide to see each other exclusively. Breaking news indeed, because it's my first de facto relationship.

Of course, when you've not had any proper relationship by the age of 39, you make do with the variety of affection that usually comes with no-strings, no follow-up, no fuss, no he's not going to call you on your birthday.

So maybe I was freaked out at this major step I was taking. Or I was just an asshole because I cheated. A month ago. No excuses. I'm an asshole.

This evening, after a very intimate and loving weekend, I decided to 'fess up. I wanted to be honest.

The look on his face broke my heart. I'm still not sure if I'm still in a relationship after today.

It hurts like hell.

Beautiful

2010-02-01T14:31:00.003+08:00

Maybe it's because of my years associated with the music industry that I've always felt very invested in the Grammy awards. Last year, I skipped watching the 'live' telecast for the first time in more than 13 years...and didn't really miss it. Or maybe 'cos I was busy at work. Or maybe it was a boring year for music.

This year's different. I've had a blah couple of weeks, work's not engaging me at the moment, I'm recovering from some weird sty on my eye, and I'm feeling exceptionally needy, what with not having spent any face time with the one who stayed over.

The eye's still acting up slightly so I'm on sick leave today, and had the Grammy's for company. Big year for Beyonce, Lady Gaga & Taylor Swift. But this moment during the award show was unexpected, beautiful and in my opinion, stole the show with its classy showmanship and Pink's underrated strong vocals. Don't know how long this is going to be on the internet, but enjoy this work of art while it's still online.

Art.

It's All New

2010-01-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

It's sorta 2 months into this new relationship, and yeah, I do have those nervous moments and curious minutes where I'm not sure if I can impose, if I should impose. 'Cos you know how it's a thin line between cool fella to raving lunatic.

And I guess it's only natural to have these moments when adjustments are being made, when you're trying to create new routines, and find common things that you both want to do.

It's all new. And some days, it's equal parts fun and scary. Call me a worrier.

But HT is lovely and sweet and lovable and it's quite a heady mix. Bless.

Work's boring me somewhat, and I'm hoping this will pass. Plus this stye on my eye (or is that sty) is so not helping with my general mood. Oh, and the whole tax/bills/money/mum thing is also causing some measure of chagrin.

Yeah, I used chagrin in a sentence. Sue me. How was your week?

Rainy January Morning

2010-01-11T10:01:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought I was getting used to the HK winter and it gets cold again this morning. Thank goodness for terry cloth towels.

Anyway, so I've started dating. 6 months to my 40th birthday. Interesting. Enjoying it. I feel pretty grown up, and we've actually had a few chat about heavy-going serious matters.

It's a scary but good feeling.

And I also came along this brilliant blog that a woman started, listing down the rich material that her sleep-talking husband comes up with. You can't make this up stuff up:

"I can't control the kittens. Too many whiskers! Too many whiskers!"
"Ooh! My balls are itchy. Have you got the cheese grater?"
"I haven't put on weight. Your eyes are fat."
"By the way, washing in rose water doesn't stop you smelling like a piece of shit."

Read more about Sleep Talkin' Man's mumblings here.

This past weekend, I checked out Boring Ego's blog and saw BiPolo man at the bar down the road. Random. And then I had lunch with HT and walked HT home, which was quite lovely.

Have a good week ahead. Kiss kiss.

Happy Holidays

2009-12-28T14:51:00.002+08:00

How was your Christmas break? I have a friend staying with me. And his friends brought on their fair share of drama over the holidays.

The cougar got super drunk and passed out in the washroom of a nice bar we were at. And the childish one got drunk and decided to pee next to the DJ console in a club.

And I've started to date. Like, properly. Which is nice and strange and just a little bit scary. Early days. Wish me luck.

And no more drunk holidaying friends for 2010, please!

Have you watched Avatar yet?

OMG! The Gossip Girl Three-Way! - The Daily Beast

2009-11-10T14:13:00.002+08:00

Rejoice, Upper East Siders, because Monday night's Gossip Girl finally revealed the participants of the sweeps-ratings-baiting threesome. When a "things to do in college" checklist met with hard liquor, it was none other than Dan, his movie star girlfriend Olivia, and his BFF Vanessa who tripled their pleasure.

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Fave Emmy Moment

2009-09-22T15:25:00.001+08:00

Been a while, I know. Work happens. Life, too. Sorry.

But I loved this piece of press room session with Tina Fey and the cast of 30 Rock.

Ruff

2009-08-28T13:46:00.002+08:00

It's one of those weeks where the only thing that got a laugh out of me was this lovely piece of television.

Yeah, one of those weeks.

Lego & The Dick

2009-08-25T10:22:00.003+08:00

I guess there are more productive ways to spend 1,500 hours, but this is pretty.

And the dick in question is Malaysian Minister of Information, Communication & Culture, Rais Yatim. Watch this clip of him being a mega dickasaurus at a press conference in KL. Malaysian politics is screwed up beyond belief, and when clowns like these are given the office of government, you've got to wonder how broken the system is. And it makes me sad for the good people in Malaysia.

For more background on Malaysia and race politics, read this interesting op-ed piece. Sad.

Crazy Bitch

2009-08-04T13:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes freedom of speech is a crazy bitch.

Eye Candy Alert

2009-08-04T00:14:00.003+08:00

I just came across this video of Miles Fisher, who some of you might apparently know from Gossip Girl, who bears an altogether uncanny resemblance to Christian Bale.

And he puts this to good use in the video for his cover of David Byrne's "This Must Be The Place".

Clever way to get noticed, cheeky fella.

New TV Guilty Pleasure

2009-07-30T11:37:00.003+08:00

No matter where your tastes in entertainment lie, the new series Spartacus will have something for everyone.

You'll have to wait 'til 2010 for the series...what a tease, I know!

A Brighter Shade of Yasmin

2009-07-29T10:45:00.006+08:00

It's funny how people that you hardly know can sometimes move you to feel and act in a way that defies words.

A few days ago, Malaysian film director Yasmin Ahmad suffered a stroke and died without regaining consciousness. She had been in a meeting when she collapsed and was rushed to a nearby hospital. Her death at 51 shocked many in KL and beyond.

When I was living in KL and was working at Channel [V], Yasmin Ahmad used to be one of the few public figures that I respected and admired. I used to chase the production team that I worked with to get interviews with her, to hear her point of view, to commit her opinion to tape. I had a feeling that her voice was an important one.

She was eloquent and her creative works, though sometimes 'controversial' in the eyes of some, had an almost subversiveness in their simplicity and honesty. And I liked that we were able to give our regional audience an insight into Yasmin's thinking and point of view.

Perhaps it is my mixed-race background that was drawn to Yasmin's message of how we are all the same at the end of the day. Or maybe it was the grace and humility that she displayed when faced with challenges to her religious views, her artistic vision and her 'Malaysian-ness' that gave her voice a relevance that very few public figures could command in Malaysia.

For these reasons and more, Yasmin Ahmad's death has been profoundly sad for me and to fans of her work. Here are some examples of what she did so well.

And here's an interview she did a few years ago that gives you a glimpse behind the person who was Yasmin Ahmad.

I have to stop watching her interviews if I'm going to get any work done at all. Rest in peace, Yasmin.

Shallow-bration

2009-07-24T11:26:00.007+08:00

So I was asked to come up with a suggestion for what Madonna's Greatest Hits collection should have as a tracklisting by a friend of mine who knows people who know people who are working on the project. No-brainer for me, and I even came up with a suggested list of iconic videos that Madonnna's done over the years.

If you know me well, you'll know that I do know a little bit too much about Madonna, but unlike Perez Hilton, I do not call her my role model or example in life. He's such a loser, but that's my take.

But back to me.

So apparently my suggestion was sent thru' to the guy who's handling this project in the US, and I was honestly curious to see how close my list will be to the final tracklisting. And I was also curious to hear the new song Celebration, penned by Madonna & co-produced with DJ/producer Paul Oakenfold.

And then yesterday, I saw this monstrosity that is the new album cover.

I'm all for street art, but this? The Greatest Hits album cover? Seriously?

The person behind the art is Brainwashed (how apt), a renowned street artist who's got a lot of buzz and blah blah blah, and I'm sure he's cool and all that, but for a 25-year career to be summed up by this piece of art, I think it falls short. Way short. Like so short that I-can't-believe-I'm-blogging-about-it short.

But in the name of being fair (which I can be), here's an interview with Mr Brainwash himself.

I respect the art, but I'm no fan of the work. And the music video better be good. Happy Shallow Friday, everyone.

We Can All Do With A Bit Of Jesus

2009-07-20T18:13:00.003+08:00

Much has been said about Madonna's new paramour Jesus Luz and many questions have been asked about why are they together.

Does this photograph help?

And if you need more convincing, you can click here.

Palin Comparision

2009-07-09T10:15:00.002+08:00

Whichever way you lean politically, whether you are aware of the cable TV wars or not, Rachel Maddow is truly one of the smartest and most eloquent people on cable news television.

Case in point.

Entertaining, to say the least.

Madonnainspired?

2009-06-25T09:42:00.008+08:00

Tim Burton's vision of Alice In Wonderland will be out next year but the first promotional pictures for the concept art have been released, and simply put, Mr Burton does not disappoint.

When I saw the photo of good-tipper Johnny Depp made up as The Mad Hatter

I couldn't help but think that the make-up artist perhaps could have been slightly inspired by

...gapped tooth and all! I'm just saying...

Just So You Know

2009-06-24T11:17:00.003+08:00

As the world is convulsed into extreme points of views about what they are seeing coming out of Iran, I saw this clip today and felt that it would be good if you knew this part of the story. As is always the case in politics and life, everything lies a deeper shade of gray.

Visit msnbc.com for Breaking News, World News, and News about the Economy

In unrelated news, it's been 8 months since my return to HK. All is good. Even that strange person who resurfaced after more than 4 years of no-contact. Random, indeed!

Ellen

2009-05-20T10:18:00.001+08:00

It's all too easy to forget how funny Ellen can be. And how amazing she is.

This Blows My Mind

2009-05-05T09:54:00.004+08:00

While the US media/blogosphere rages on with the controversy of Miss California's stance for 'opposite marriage', my home country saw it's own public debate on the rights of the individual versus the 'community' via the theatre that was the takeover of women's rights advocacy group AWARE by members of a fundamental Christian church.

(Background on this issue can be found here.)

Singapore has such a complex social structure when it comes to 'homegrown' values and the island's aspirations of being a world-class city. How do you reconcile the modernity that one of the richest independent nations in the world enjoys with archaic laws that are essentially holdovers from when the British ruled Singapore? Is this truly a conservative-versus-progressive debate? How do the rules of civil society thrive when religious values are given a moral advantage?

Some might say that this is the liberal left being self-serving, especially when these laws pertain to 'acts of gross indecency' - legal parlance for sodomy - but as demonstrated by these women at the Extraordinary General Meeting, the rights of ALL minorities are affected when the rights of any one minority group is
impinged.

Such an airing of opposing views in defense of such a 'controversial' matter has never happened in Singapore, as far as I can recall, and gives me hope that the country that I was born in might indeed have made the first steps towards joining the civil societies of the world.

There's still some ways to go before Singapore will ever have anything close to this.

But that's OK. Baby steps.

Condom Use & The Pope

2009-03-18T14:09:00.007+08:00

I understand the need for the Catholic Church to stick to doctrine, but saying things that are not supported by facts is at best, misleading and at worst, an inaccurate and criminal marketing message to keep the faith.

This Pope is in serious need of making the church relevant to today's world, instead of unrealistically thinking that the world lives by his sets of values. And to sell this notion to Africa with its frightening HIV/AIDS epidemic (22 million people live with the disease) is downright criminal.

Karma & The Cat

2009-03-07T01:28:00.005+08:00

You might recall that about 2 weeks ago, in a fit of unhinged frustration over my cats fighting, I put my youngest cat into an animal carrier and released him to fend for himself. The reality of what I did hit me like a brick wall 2 days later, and I was really worried that I might never get over the guilt of abandoning a pet. I tried to make sense of my rash decision, but nothing stuck.

This evening, as I was headed out to get some dinner, I walked around to where I had left Alfie and to my surprise, and relief, he was there. Huddled, scared and slightly shell-shocked. He had been hiding out by the plants around the pool of the condo where my friends Andy & Jody live in. He was initially reluctant to come to me when I called him, but with Jody's help, Alfie ran out into a clearing, which made it easier for me to approach him and bring him home.

As I type this, he's sleeping in my lap, probably relieved to be out of the rain and cold, and hopefully not too traumatized from what I did to him 11 days ago. I'm gonna bring him to the vet in the morning, just so I know that he's OK. And maybe the vet can prescribe something that will calm him down from being super aggressive.

I hope I've corrected some of the negative karma by bringing Alfie back, but I also know I'll be thinking about this for a long time to come. I need to make adjustments to how I conduct my emotional housekeeping.

Alfie's back and a weight's been lifted off my chest, and I'm looking forward to having a proper night's sleep.

John Stewart Vs CNBC

2009-03-06T00:41:00.003+08:00

Even if you're not familiar with how it all works, this piece from The Daily Show tells you that CNBC might be having something of a credibility problem.

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In Praise Of David Gandy

2009-03-04T21:27:00.005+08:00

I'm cold in Seoul and have too much on my mind, so here's just a deeply shallow moment if this works for you.

We now return to scheduled programming.

Smile Tuesday

2009-03-03T08:27:00.001+08:00

Monday

2009-03-02T10:00:00.002+08:00

One week on, and I'm feeling less guilty about stuff. Sigh. And I head off to Seoul tomorrow for work. It's gonna be really cold - it's 0 degrees tomorrow night! - and I'm sorta curious to see how painful it'll get.

Interesting Saturday night, hanging out with a few colleagues who I can now say are friends. Nothing like booze for bonding. And then there was the Franglais, the 'friend' who asked to see my belly, 10 spicy chicken wings and I'm still a bit fuzzy today.

And there's nothing like The Office to get you ready for the office. Here's a musical montage that made me smile.

Have a good week, Randomers.

Drama, Much?

2009-02-25T09:57:00.004+08:00

What a week.

My friends Jess & Alex got married over the weekend and had a beautiful ceremony with a small gathering of family and friends. There were laughs and lots and lots of tears.

Then there was me snapping and letting my youngest cat go - he had become extremely territorial and aggressive over the past few weeks and had been attacking my oldest cat. It was very distressing to come home to clumps of fur all over the house and growling and hissing. I'm sure the guilt will hit me at some point, but I'd rather have 2 happy cats than 3 stressed out pets.

I have to read up on diabetes 'cos my dad's medical condition is not getting any better. And I have to learn to deal with a very good friend's HIV positive status and how that will impact his life and affect ours.

Drama. But then again, that's life, isn't it?

Space.

2009-02-19T00:03:00.007+08:00

Today marks the one-year anniversary of my having been made redundant from my previous job. No biggie, but I'm back in the city that I used to call home for 6 years. On the drive from the airport to my downtown hotel, I looked out at all the houses and condominiums and just longed and craved and missed one thing.

Space.

I never thought I would miss living in an 1,100-square feet apartment. Who would need so much space anyway? Give me something smaller, I used to say, and I'll be fine.

Well, I do have something smaller now. 623square feet on paper, but the actual space works out to be something like 480square feet. I think. And that's too small. Even my cats are going slightly stir crazy.

They're all boys and used to have their own corners and little domains but in my current apartment, there's way too much overlap, and it's stressing them out. For the past 2 weeks, I've come home from work to clumps of fur and pissed off growling and howling. It's stressing me out.

On some levels, I feel bad that I cannot give them more space to do their thing, and that kinda dovetails into my need for more space, I guess. It's odd. But maybe it's not that odd, given that most of my friends have 'proper-sized', grown-up apartments.

Things are going OK for me and I should remain positive and look at the bright side. Work's coming along fine, I'm doing OK health-wise and I'm slowly beginning to enjoy my new home.

But it's a bit hard to focus on all that when a good friend calls you to tell you that he tested positive for HIV. And then your mum calls to say that dad - who suffers from diabetes - has a swollen foot and is not responding to medication.

And in 2 days, I'm gonna be a bride's mate at a friend's wedding.

Intense.

Rewind: HK

2009-02-15T20:16:00.003+08:00

As I approach my sixth month in HK (yes, I keep track too much), I had a very odd Saturday which brought me back to many, many years ago.

I meet with a friend for lunch, and he had a friend from out of town who was staying with him. So we head for one of HK's more famous must-eat locations for lunch. We walk up the stairs in a single file to the restaurant, tell the staff we needed a table for 3, and proceeded to wait for our number to be called. And that's when we discovered that the visiting friend had disappeared.

See, said visiting friend is not totally out of the closet and apparently he had seen someone who knew him at the restaurant we were at, and that totally spooked him. I totally understand the gay-by-association thing, 'cos I had my own issues about that years ago, but I never had to leave any restaurant because I might be outed. That's just sad and totally effed up.

I mean, I can empathize on some levels, but the guy is almost 30 and I think it's just silly that you cannot even eat lunch because someone might see you. How do you live like that?

Later that evening, I headed out to another friend's birthday and housewarming and it was a muggy evening but the company was great. And I meet another guest at the party who was smart and charming and pretty cool...and like a teenager, I had the worst case of insta-crush. Hate it when that happens. But I think I kinda kept it under wraps enough that my friend's didn't have to hose me down.

Back in the day, when I lived in HK the first time around, I suffered from insta-crushes all the time. I reckon it's a result of not knowing how to express affection within limits (does that make sense?) so much so that anyone who gave me attention, I would just cling on.

Deja vu is a funny, random thing. And hindsight is lovely, even on a muggy day in a country house by the beach. Maybe my date on Monday night will help give me some perspective.

Inglourious Basterds

2009-02-12T10:14:00.003+08:00

Just because Brad Pitt's working with Quentin Tarantino with a crazy accent. And yes, that's how the movie title's spelled.

Keith Haring. Just Because.

2009-02-11T12:33:00.007+08:00

I've always been slightly intrigued by the man behind the crazy figures and squiggly lines whose artistry was both unique and accessible.

I don't know much about Keith Haring besides the fact that he wore glasses, he was gay and that he died from AIDS. Later, I was surprised to learn from watching Madonna interviews that she was friends with Keith, and that they were both the same age. She even used his artwork in one of the performances on her Sticky & Sweet Tour.

So today, in my daily trawling of the internet for random bits of info, I came across this documentary posted on Towleroad which made real the man behind the name. (The intro's in Dutch but the rest of the program's in English)

Keith Haring Documentary from ovicone on Vimeo.
Thoroughly fascinating. I can watch this over and over again. Until they remove it, of course.

The Best Reality Show

2009-02-06T14:06:00.003+08:00

Real life trumps fiction as the financial crisis brings up this soon-to-classic scolding that a NY congressman lays on the Securities & Exchange Commission for failing to do their job.

I could watch this all day...

Drugs Are Bad (And Funny)

2009-02-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

Long Time No Blog

2009-02-04T15:56:00.004+08:00

I know, it's been a while. Funny how time flies when you let a series of little things sorta overwhelm your schedule until you find that it's 2am and something like 15 weeks since you last blogged.

I'm settling nicely into HK, enjoying the cooler weather and smaller spaces, and re-learning the joys of doing a lot of walking. There some nice new people, there are some nicer older friends and work's keeping me busy. I'll try to be more regular here.

But enough about me. Here's a sampling of some of the fun things I'm enjoying.

Here's the awesome Annie Lennox and her new single "Shining Light". Loving this.

You might have already read about and heard Christian Bale's on-set meltdown with the Director of Photography for his new movie, Terminator: Salvation. Here's the meltdown mixed into a pretty kicking dance mix that I want to download to my IPod.

And Lego continues being cool in the age of Obama.

You can see more here.

And speaking of Obama, I love this piece from Fox News on the touchy-feelyness that has come to characterize America's First Couple.

For the uninitiated, fisting is quite an extreme display of affection.

And finally, I catch myself missing KL every now and again.

New, New, New

2008-11-06T23:50:00.002+08:00

It's so refreshing and reassuring that after 8 years of America's bullying, insular ways, things will change. It's long overdue that America catches up with the world. Long overdue.

I don't know about you, but being biracial and working in a multi-cultural environment, and having lived away from Singapore and traveled a fair bit in the region and beyond, I find it sad that some Americans have no idea whatsoever about the world out there. And still think that that's perfectly alright.

Fortunately, my American friends are far more enlightened, worldly and with it. Heck, all my friends are with it!

In unrelated news, I misplaced my passport in Hong Kong and I'm back in Singapore for a few days to get a replacement. Within the space of 2 months, I've moved to a new home, started a new job, made new friends, gotten new HK & Singapore ID cards, and now, a new passport.

Evidently, I do new in a big way.

Delayed No More

2008-11-02T22:43:00.003+08:00

I guess it had to happen sooner or later.

I did a 1-night stopover in Singapore to collect my replacement ID card and then spent the weekend in KL to run a few errands (bank & medical stuff)and hang out with some of my friends.

It's been 6 weeks since I moved to HK in what some might call a bit of a rush. Maybe it was the intense familiarity over the weekend - dinner at Way Cheng's, drinks at Twenty-One & Frangipani, buying a bunch of catfood at my former usual store cos it was way cheaper - or simply that I hadn't had time to truly process the move, but as I made my way to the airport this evening for the return to Hong Kong, I was slightly overwhelmed with the feeling of deja-you-don't-live-here-anymore. And it felt so sad.

I just felt strange about leaving a city that I had called home for 6 years with no fanfare, no farewell. KL had given me a whole wealth of professional & personal experiences, and I made some very good friends. I had not said goodbye properly, I guess, and just did what I had to do to re-establish HK as my homebase.

With the start of a new moon, and my increased and exciting new workload, and the news I received this evening that a friend,who's a couple of years older than me, had had a heart attack this morning - it looks like it's gonna be anything but mundane over the next few weeks and months.

I'm so not a mourning person. And maybe that's the problem.

Too Funny, Too Painful!

2008-10-24T10:58:00.001+08:00

Impressive, Part 2

2008-10-20T11:10:00.004+08:00

This is the sort of political language and frankness that needs to come back.

At least the rest of the world will feel that America can take care of in-house business before policing the world.

The Voice Of Reason

2008-10-19T22:05:00.004+08:00

Colin Powell is just simply impressive!

Tina Rules

2008-10-13T11:56:00.004+08:00

In these times of economic uncertainty and uncertain economics, one thing holds true - Tina Fey rules.

Her pitch-perfect Sarah Palin impersonation on Saturday Night Live has become even more damaging for the former beauty queen-turned-Republican VP candidate than any news report out there.

In case you missed it, here's how it all started.

Her current hotness is long overdue and besides signing a US$6-mil book deal recently, Tina Fey's creation, 30 Rock, might finally get the mainstream acceptance that the show so deserves with the star-studded 3rd season.

Here's a sneak peek.

All I can say is that I'm so glad I have true broadband now. Now all I need is curtains.

Don't Vote

2008-10-02T09:41:00.002+08:00

This goes on for a bit too long, but any ad about voting that has 'sh*t' and 'f*ck' in it is worth watching. And you can also play name that celeb.

The Empress Has No Clue!

2008-09-27T09:00:00.004+08:00

Cringe!

One Week In (Sofa So Good)

2008-09-24T12:24:00.007+08:00

It's been a week since I made the move from KL to HK and already I've completed my first project at work, collected the keys to my apartment, placed an order for a bed that will arrive in 4 weeks, experienced another typhoon and I'm also planning for a work trip to Seoul next week.

Then there's the business of my cats delayed flight into HK. They were supposed to have arrived last night but with the typhoon churning up strong winds, their flight was delayed 'til 9 this morning, which would mean they will arrive at my apartment, totally freaked out and pissed off, around 4pm today. The apartment's furniture-less but I've got the stuff that I shipped from KL, so I hope that will help with their assimilation into a smaller space.

And I'm also gonna be putting a deposit down today (I think) for a customized sofa. I knew that this time around I didn't want to Ikea-fy my apartment. I went to see the sofa makers that my friend Eugene recommended and they said it'll take about 3 weeks to complete. I've been looking at designs online to get ideas for what would work for my 638sq feet-apartment. It's all very grown up.

Unless of course if I went with this design.

I'll keep you posted.

I'm Still Around

2008-09-11T23:43:00.005+08:00

I know it's been quite a while since we've met here. The last few weeks have been very much about phone calls, emails, quotations, visits to the vet, sorting out who's buying what from my apartment in KL... all because I start my new job next Wednesday.

I'm almost all packed and I've already signed my lease for the apartment in HK. I"m excited to get back to work, and I'm really looking forward to experiencing a place I used to call home 6 years later, 6 years older and with so much more experience than I could have ever imagined when I first arrived in KL on July 21st, 2002.

Those of you who know me know that I tend to double-book / multi-task / fit as much as I can in a short period of time (in all areas...) and surely enough, with 4 days to go before the move, I'm currently in Singapore to get a replacement for my misplaced ID card, I fly out to Bangkok on Saturday morning to celebrate a close friend's 40th birthday, head back to KL on Sunday evening, which will then leave me with about 36 hours or so to finalize the bits and pieces before I fly out to HK.

Maybe it's being older, maybe it's the confidence I feel about my friendships, or maybe it's just the connectivity of Facebook because this time around, with the move to HK and all, I don't feel like I need a farewell to anyone or anything.

And to think that my journey to KL wouldn't have happened if I hadn't had THAT chat with the boss about doing more, which came about after I was stuck in NYC for 2 weeks 7 years ago today.

I'm still around. See you when I get to HK.

The Ouch!lympics...

2008-08-14T09:37:00.001+08:00

I Have A Date

2008-08-11T17:57:00.003+08:00

My days of job-freedomness will soon come to an end. I signed some papers today and I have to start making plans for the new gig. And move.

Which is a good thing. And I've had lots of time to think about what I'm doing, the people in my life and what I want to do, moving forward.

There's some clarity, there's some baggage, and there's also some unfinished business. Suffice to say, there's housekeeping to do, and it's ain't all in my neighbourhood.

It's been a heavy couple of weeks, but this cheered me up to no end. Enjoy the silliness (with thanks to Ben).

All Hail The Queen & The Dark Knight

2008-07-17T12:48:00.005+08:00

Dame Helen Mirren is 63. You might remember her as The Queen. This holiday snapshot is untouched by any airbrush corrections.

Makes me wanna call a personal trainer straight away!

In unrelated news, I watched The Dark Knight and was totally blown away by Heath Ledger's performance in a well-crafted movie, infused with the dark undercurrents of the Batman legend, made even more bittersweet with the hint of a love story.

Heck, I even liked Christian Bale, and the last time I liked him was in Empire Of The Sun when he was 11, I think.

But Heath Ledger totally steals the show.

Blown. Away.

Eye Candy

2008-07-16T18:07:00.005+08:00

Are words really necessary for this cover shot of Giselle?

And after those David Beckham's underwear pics, does Calvin Klien's new model Garret Neff even come close?

Nothing's stirring for me.

And no, I've not received that important email yet. Got any shiny object to distract me?

While I Wasn't Blogging...

2008-07-15T14:39:00.003+08:00

...I added Finland to my dubious list of, er, friends. Yes, I've kept myself quite busy.

...I've yet to read the 'leaked' script of Tarantino's new movie, beautifully titled "Inglorious Bastards" (sic). Apparently it's truly batshit-insane, which means I'll probably watch the movie long after it's premiere. I've not watched any Tarantino flick since Pulp Fiction.

...I've been hooked on playing Prolific. Hooked to the point of insomnia. Go try it, wordgeeks. If the link doesn't work, it's on Facebook.

...The hottest smile I've seen belongs to Caio de la Vega.

There are more pictures of him here. Prepare yourself.

...I watched this year's Miss Universe pageant on TV and couldn't believe that after this happened last year

this year's Miss America tripped again!

What are the odds? One of my favourite bloggers felt that Miss America applauding herself after falling was a great metaphor for the current American administration.

Maybe all these things are my way of filling up time while I wait for an important email. It cannot come soon enough!

Tom Ford Has Himself Some Balls

2008-07-04T18:49:00.014+08:00

(This post contains pictures of tender bits, so be forewarned)

Where can Tom Ford go after ads like this

and this?

Here are the pictures from Mr Ford's Spring/Summer ad campaign.

I'm curious to see how this ad might look as a billboard.

The Test

2008-07-02T14:06:00.003+08:00

The first time I took my HIV test years ago, I was afraid, I was nervous, I was rather mortified. It only takes 1 exposure, they tell you - which is true, by the way - so I prepared myself for the worst while still trying to stay positive, so to speak.

I was all prepared for whatever news came my way, but the counseling that the nurse gave me before the results made me feel like I was already exposed to the virus. It wasn't a good feeling. I kept thinking about how my life would be changed, how I would have to make all these adjustments in the social, the sexual, the emotional...but mainly the sexual. I was in my 20s, whatcha expect?

I tested negative then, as I did 2 weeks ago with my most recent blood test. While I waited for the results, the usual thoughts about "What if I'm positive" preoccupied my thoughts, but this time, I found myself thinking about my friends' children. I love spending time with these kids and I truly wanna be involved in their lives.

If I was positive, their parents may not feel comfortable about me playing with the children. That thought made me very sad.

Wow. I've grown up, I guess. Grown up enough to meet with a financial planner to sort out my business so that the folks will be OK if i drop dead. Grown up enough to do a complete bloodwork check and I'm glad to report that I'm healthy and all-clear.

I hope I haven't jinxed myself. Have you been tested?

It's All In The Make-Up

2008-06-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

While I take this current time-out to ponder what I truly want to do next, I came across this clip.

What qualifications do you need to apply make-up to swimwear models?

I know friends who'll get a nosebleed from this clip.

Brain New Proof?

2008-06-22T17:24:00.007+08:00

You might have already read about the report that the gay male brain is very similar to the straight female brain? And that the gay female/straight male brain comparison also bears some areas of commonality.

The details are here, if you're interested, but here's a lively discussion on the topic, courtesy of the women of The View.

Making Noice

2008-06-19T15:36:00.004+08:00

So lots have happened over the past few weeks. And months, for that matter.

I celebrated another birthday, I learned the far more economical pleasures of prosecco, hung out with my god-son in Bangkok I completed my first gig as an official blogger, went for a few job interviews - the biggest one being the one that took place last Wednesday with 7 people - and I think I might have found something to do which I love and can provide me with some spare change. Which is always nice, no?

Some of you might remember my trip to Bali last year with Stephen, which was followed a couple of weeks later with a trip to Koh Samui to celebrate his 40th birthday with his friends in a beautiful villa. Given that I didn't want to spend loads of money getting him a gift that would reflect my somewhat complicated emotions (how much time do you have?), I decided to make an iTunes playlist with Stephen's favourite songs, and songs that I thought he would like. "40 In Samui" was a perfect gift (he loved it) and provided the soundtrack to a memorable weekend for all of us.

This 'mixtape', plus my years working as a music programmer led me to decide that this soundtracking/music styling service can be provided for a fee. I mean, it'll be a major stretch for me to be a gigolo at this stage, and I'm not as bendy as I used to be, so why not do something that I'm good at?

I've already got a couple of clients in KL, and I'm pitching to a few people in Hong Kong and Thailand as well. Exciting stuff. We'll see. I'm calling what I do 'Noice'.

Can you believe it's been a year since I started this blog? How far have we really come, Randomers?

Coldplay Did What?

2008-06-18T12:49:00.002+08:00

Have you missed me?

I missed me too. Yeah, it's been a while. Lots of stuff kinda going on and I'll get those on the blog in the days to come.

For now, check out this seemingly damning video which I'm sure Chris Martin will not like.

I, (Official) Blogger

2008-06-04T11:09:00.002+08:00

I am a week away to my 38th birthday and as is the unspoken edict of trying new things in my current phase of 'freedom', I am blogging for the official blog for an even more official event - Music Matters.

There's a lot I wanna tell you, but for now, I'm trying to stave off hunger, focus on the speech that is currently being given (heavy on technical details, lots of personal insights, but despite his august background, I'm kinda bored).

I wonder how good lunch will be. Mmm...lunch.

So Wet, So Cool, So Loving It!

2008-05-28T16:16:00.004+08:00

~ I love water.

I'm not even paying attention to what Penn Badgley's saying in this clip. All's I know is that he's wet. Yes, I just said that.

~ And the coolest band in the world is Weezer.

Check out the video to their newest single "Pork & Beans" which features a handful of viral hits from the net (for better or worse). See how many e-lebrities you can spot.

Their new album's out on the 3rd of June. So cool I can explode with glee. Though I won't cos I have a plane to catch tomorrow.

Eurovision Of Love?

2008-05-25T17:54:00.006+08:00

Every year, without fail, a huge chunk of the European TV-watching population is glued to the Eurovision Song Contest, a competition that seems to have passed it's sell-by date, and relevance.

Perhaps the most famous Eurovision winner is Abba, who took the trophy in 1974 with "Waterloo". Then there was also Israeli transexual Dana International who won the contest in 1998.

But every year, without fail, the contest persists and it's become a bit of a novelty/train-wreck/freak-show that's actually good, clean, tacky fun.

This year's winner is Russian pop star Dima Bilan, who performed barefoot and who obviously has been working out.

Check out the ice-skater who performs with Dima on stage.

Dima is also a bit of a show-off, having posed for these 'sexy' pictures which has obviously not hurt his singing career.

He needs to eat.

David Cook Is My Guitar Hero

2008-05-23T09:29:00.002+08:00

Nice.

Slowing Down

2008-05-22T10:35:00.003+08:00

3 weeks after my last day at work, I think I'm finally beginning to slow down some.

I think.

I know that I wanna stay productive, so I've been filling up my 'free' days with appointments, meetings and social get-togethers. Over the last 2 weeks, I've popped in to Singapore to hang out with the family and friends, as well as Bangkok to see my godson, Finn, who I last saw when he was a day old.

But finally, after all these weeks, sleep's beginning to catch up. Which is good, given my frequent insomniac episodes.

And it's even better that I woke up to wonderful news about which David won American Idol.

Speculations

2008-05-14T11:56:00.004+08:00

~ Is this a legit print ad for Playstation?

Apparently it's for the European market and was created in Austria.

Don't get me started on Austria...

~ Another day, another bunch of gay rumours and blind items. A new book is out with much salacious details about a few famous African-Americans who could possibly be on your silver screen, TV or music player.

Does Will Smith's daliance with Scientology make him an easy target?

Happy Wednesday, Randomers. I'm off to Bangkok to see my godson!

Idiot Of The Week

2008-05-10T15:21:00.003+08:00

I know that David Archuleta is favoured to win American Idol. I cannot stand him.

The boy is 17, granted, so he IS still a boy but he's so over-the-top in his self-effacing 'humility' when he reacts to the judges comments that I just want to vomit on his shoes.

And then comes news that his stage father, one Jeff Archuleta, has been banned from rehearsals by Fox because of "intense backstage involvement", which was cause for concern. Which is a nice way of saying he's a dick.

The ban was enforced after Daddy Archuleta 'suggested' including a verse from Sean Kingston's "Beautiful Girls" to David's version of the classic, Stand By Me.

That creative call cost Fox and they had to fork out money to Sean Kingston's music reps because the rights to that song wasn't previously cleared for broadcast.

Nice move, Daddy Dumbass.

OMFG!

2008-05-09T22:05:00.007+08:00

I cannot wait for the Blackberry 9000 (above, left) to hit the store shelves in July/August!

I cannot believe I'm this excited about a gadget on Friday night!

Anything fun lined up this weekend, Randomers?

Can't Sleep, Can't Wait!

2008-05-08T02:42:00.003+08:00

I have to say that I'm rather excited about seeing how Sex And The City will translate cinematically. 3 more weeks to go, wayhey!

The first few spoiler-free reviews are out, and they've been generous in their assessment.

And articles like this one, totaling 7 pages, are also not helping with my irregular sleep patterns these days.

I'll live.

I'm so Miranda this week.

Whaddya Mean By That?

2008-05-06T18:22:00.003+08:00

Since I stopped working last Wednesday, I've noticed a rather curious thing.

Every conversation or chat that I have is underscored by an odd awareness of nuance. I'm hyper-sensitive to tone, choice of words and even, get this, lingering silence.

You should have seen how bothered I was when I asked a friend on MSN chat "How's the Madonna album selling?" and his response was a cold and solitary "Good." Followed by nothing else.

I was thisclose to calling him to clarify why he was being so vague. What the heck did he mean by that?

It's funny how the mind starts to fill up the quiet spaces in between when you do not have a deadline to meet, an appointment to keep or a meeting to get to.

I'm sure I'll get used to this, but just in case I get on your case, you'll know where it's coming from.

32 Minutes!

2008-05-02T12:49:00.005+08:00

That was all the time Madonna spent on stage, performing for 3000 people at NYC's Roseland Ballroom last night.

For a promotional gig, it sure boasted some mighty impressive production values (Strobe lights! Crane cameras! Travelator action!) Check out these clips from the Hard Candy Promo Tour.

Opening number "Candy Shop"

The next single "Give It 2 Me"

Justin popped in for some sexy dry-humping...

Hot!

He Just Did It

2008-05-01T10:26:00.003+08:00

While the missus is peddling Hard Candy, Guy Ritchie is making news with this ad he directed for Nike.

I would say that it's all been done before. Not for Nike, mind you, but you might remember this wild video by The Prodigy directed by Jonas Akerlund.

Not that I don't heart Guy Ritchie, who is choice Man Candy in his own right.

Happy Labour Day, Randomers!

Like Any Other Day

2008-04-30T12:39:00.003+08:00

So I'm finally on my last day at work. The office is bare and I've got 3 bags of stuff to bring back with me.

Kinda surreal, looking around the rest of the office, with empty tables and cleared out shelves and cupboards. I don't know yet if I'll miss this place.

I know I'll miss the routine, but heck, I'll find a new one soon enough. It's all good and drama-free, as it should be.

In the meantime, check out my review of Hard Candy at OneTwoMusic.com.

Hard Candy Eye Candy

2008-04-29T19:13:00.006+08:00

While I think about what I wanna say for my review of Hard Candy on OneTwoMusic, you might wanna check this out on 30 April at 10pm EST (if you're in the US, so that'll make 2 of you reading this) for the 'live' streaming of Madonna's promo gig at NYC's Roseland Ballroom.

For the rest of you, check back from 15 May onwards to watch the gig on demand.

The album is definitely a well-crafted piece of work and I'm sure the promo gig will continue in the Madonna tradition of first-rate entertainment. Early reports suggest that there will be a distinct retro vibe in the outfits and musical arrangements.

Here's another cover featuring a new promo pic of Mrs Ritchie.

Hot Mess, Hot Party

2008-04-23T11:32:00.009+08:00

~ This has been floating about for a while, but is it just me or is the fact that Whitney Houston is doing it with Brandy's baby brother, Ray J - who also happens to be more (in)famous for that sex tape with Kim Kardashian - just kinda makes the argument that drugs are bad, mmkay? What a hot mess!

~ If you're gonna be in HK this weekend, check out the celebs at the invitation-only launch of Madonna's Hard Candy in Qube+ in Lan Kwai Fong.

It promises to be a hot party with the entire album being played, and there's nothing like HK party-goers who I know will dress according to the "Sticky & Sweet" theme. I love HK freaks.

Here's the party banner ad on Wydham Street.

And here's the invitation that the exclusive guest-list received.

And stay tuned 'cos I might have a spare copy of the Japanese edition of Hard Candy to give to a lucky Randomer. It's got a bonus track titled Ring My Bell, for all you fans who simply love Madonna, free stuff, or just wanna make a quick buck on ebay.

Surprise, Surprise

2008-04-22T10:22:00.005+08:00

I'm still recovering from my weekend in HK.

First there was the surprise farewell party, organized by Eugene & Alexis, which I didn't see coming at all, which made it all the more pleasant. Those of you who came by, a huge thank you.

Then there was the 12-hour day of back-to-back catch-ups with friends on Saturday. I was so beat that I actually stayed in on a Saturday night. Sunday kicked off with lunch with Brandon's folks and friends, followed by the 'exploratory chat' about work, and finally, Sammy & Jonny's wedding reception and dinner. Sammy glowed and Jonny's speech made me cry (I'm so useless at weddings).

I also had the best time playing part-time manny to a friend's 9-year old (she called me a teenage girl) and 7-year old (he said I had boobs). Ah, kids.

I also got the chance to listen to an advance copy of Madonna's Hard Candy and I must say that the 1st single, 4 Minutes, is nothing like the rest of the album. Look out for future hits Miles Away (catchy hook!), Give It 2 Me (quirky euro-centric), Heartbeat (retro-flavoured), Candy Shop (sticky & sweet) & The Devil Wouldn't Recognize You (drama).

Apparently the leak has already made it to the internet, so happy hunting, Randomers. In the meantime, I'm digging this artwork for Hard Candy's deluxe edition.

I so have to hit the gym.

The End Of April. And Then Some...

2008-04-18T12:49:00.006+08:00

For those of you who are waiting to read about all the stuff that's been going on - pop cultural tidbits aside - here's a summary:

1. I was told in late February that I'd be leaving my job at the end of April. Since that time, I've written to headhunters, followed up with contacts and friends for leads, and also looked at what other things I can do to occupy my time.

2. I'm getting extended panic attacks with the impending end-date looming large. Insomnia, phantom aches, restlessness - not fun. And they're kinda happening in slow motion, which is weird. I think it's stems partly from having a lot more free time and not quite knowing what to do. I will plan for a holiday at some point but for now, I'm becoming addicted to Prolific (online Boggle).

3. I'm aiming to get a job before Madonna turns 50 (August 16). Ok, so I'm being glib but I think August/September is a good goal to work towards.

4. I'm waiting to hear back about a possible new gig at the end of April. I'm also having an exploratory chat with another potential employer tomorrow while I'm in HK.

5. I made a cuddle friend. Totally weird. Intimate but not sexual. Well, not quite sexual. It's like all sweet and warm, with a side of foreplay thrown in. And no nudity. My intimacy issues have a huge problem with this but cuddle friend leaves in a couple of weeks, so I'm just learning what I can from this experience.

5. My employment pass to live in Malaysia expires at the end of April too, but I've got 4 weeks grace to do what I go. I don't wanna move out of KL permanently until I know what my next gig is. Which might mean I'll have to commute in and out of KL on my tourist visa. We'll see.

6. I'm strangely not feeling sad about leaving my job despite having been there for 12 years. On some levels, I knew it was time. It's also interesting how constant work conversations can lead to a familiarity that makes you think you're friends with people who are merely work associates, colleagues or worse, stupid. No loss to me, really.

7. I'm looking to start a company of my own. I'm looking at the various tax liabilities and associated costs involved. I haven't decided on anything concrete. I don't even know what to call the company. Should I even be doing this now?

8. I gotta head on to Bangkok to see my god-son Finn. The last time I saw him was when he was one-day old. I suck at this.

9. My friends rock. They've all been my super-delegates and it's good to know that they've given me enough space to spaz out, while being close enough to remind me to breathe.

10. Too much?

I Kinda Wanna Slap Her

2008-04-16T12:32:00.007+08:00

Mimi was on Oprah earlier this week. Is it just me or does Oprah look like she's not quite loving Ms Carey either?

I've had a listen of the album. I still think "The Emancipation Of Mimi" was a better album.

Gimme time.

And just for Shamel who's celebrating his birthday today, here's some hard eye candy for you.

And your fave Kylie track, done acoustically, as part of Kylie's rehearsals for her X Tour.

Have a ferosh year ahead!

The Mylie Factor

2008-04-15T13:30:00.005+08:00

The world's biggest teen sensation, 15-year old Mylie Cyrus - if you're over 28, you'll know her daddy Billy Ray - has been posting her 'home videos', made with her BFF Mandy. They call it the Mylie & Mandy Show (imaginative!) and the YouTube uploads have already gained a substantial following, which is spawning talk of their own reality series.

In their most recent posting, Mylie & Mandy make their own version of Madonna's 4 minutes.

Will Mylie's teen following play a part in giving Madonna her next #1 song?

Also, in related news, fansite drownedmadonna.com has confirmed (with the requisite 'subject to change' caveat) that Madonna will kick off her next world tour on the anniversary of 9/11 in London's Wembley Stadium.

You wanna go?

Carrie & Co

2008-04-14T19:41:00.001+08:00

Just in case you missed this...

...I'm not quite feeling the trailer, but I know I'll watch the movie. Sucker.

So Good It Hurts

2008-04-12T02:14:00.006+08:00

Can they just give her some songs to record besides country tunes?

It should be apparent by now that Carrie Underwood is the next big star in waiting.

And why wasn't last year's awesome rendition of "I'll Stand By You" not enough to wake those wonderful executives at her record company to the fact that Carrie is a total crossover star?

I'm probably missing something here, right?

Armsderson Cooper

2008-04-09T18:49:00.003+08:00

This was on American TV last week but I just can't get enough of this clip, which besides proving how crazy and funny Kelly Ripa is, also showcases one particular CNN star anchor's manly biceps.

Am I loving his arms 'cos I'm in a cuddling sorta mood, or is it because I just want to see him in all his 360 glory?

I Want Candy

2008-04-02T12:48:00.021+08:00

And the countdown to Hard Candy continues with this teaser.

And the screencaps for the 4 Minutes video have also made it online (courtesy of Drowned Madonna). Here's a taste of sticky & sweet...

The video premieres in Asia on 7th April at 4:04pm (HK/SG), as of the time of this writing.

X In The USA

2008-04-01T15:28:00.002+08:00

God knows what EMI's doing with Kylie's new album around the world (restructuring much?) but X will be released in the US and here's Ms Minogue speaking with Matt Lauer on the Today Show.

So Dirty. We Like.

2008-03-29T12:26:00.008+08:00

Taschen is a publisher of books on art, architecture, design and photography. They have been around for years and had a huge hit with this book recently.

They've just announced the follow-up.

Happy browsing.

Countdown To Candy

2008-03-28T00:17:00.004+08:00

Interesting.

I still think the cover looks super cheapo.

Brave And Then Some

2008-03-27T15:07:00.003+08:00

I came across this story about Thomas Beatie, who was born female but is now legally male. He is also 22 weeks pregnant.

I'm finding it hard to find words to describe the strange combination of respect and admiration and discomfort and empathy that I'm feeling.

Love comes in all shapes and forms, no? Read Thomas Beatie's full story here.

Over The Hills

2008-03-26T09:43:00.004+08:00

Oh, The Hills. So glossy, so drama, so 'real'.

I like this version better, played word-for-word by senior citizens, based on the episode "Fight At The Club".

Totally random, we likey. Happy mid-week, Randomers.

More Popular Than MySpace!

2008-03-25T10:52:00.006+08:00

Just how popular is Perez Hilton?

So popular and newsworthy that business channel CNBC ran this story on him last night.

Getting up to 10 million hits a day can sure make you king of the blogs, and give you true power in Hollywood.

And if you wanna know how the man born Mario Lavandeira became Perez Hilton, check out this profile piece in Rolling Stone.

I heart Perez, warts and all!

And Then There Was Lisa!

2008-03-24T18:34:00.005+08:00

So I've had a somewhat restless week and then some, complete with karaoke and a so-so get-together with 2 new 'friends' which I shan't get into.

And as always, TV came to my rescue. I was watching the Tonight Show with Jay Leno and one of his guests was the loud and lewd Lisa Lampanelli.

I'd never heard of her but she was so rude and so funny that it really cheered me up. Which led me to google her and discover tons of stuff on her colourful stand-up routine, which comes complete with jokes that are downright racist and some might say intolerant, though I get that she's kinda parodying the way we are all a bit racist and intolerant.

Which means that she's not everyone's cup of tea, and that you will not be seeing her support any politician running for President any time soon.

So gird your loins and prepare for the Lisa Lampanelli experience, which by the way should not be played out loud if you're in the office or near young children.

And you have to see Lisa in her full mean glory at the Comedy Central roast for Pamela Anderson.

She might be my new hero.

America, Meet Leona

2008-03-19T13:12:00.003+08:00

Over the past few months, one voice has been filling up the airwaves and topping charts all over the world. It is a a voice that's at once powerful and evocative.

In case you've been living under a rock all this time, you would know that the voice belongs to Leona Lewis.

In case you missed it, Leona made her American TV debut through the multi-media powerhouse that is the Oprah Winfrey Show.

In case you didn't hear what Oprah said, it's "A star is born".

I can't wait for the "Mariah hates Leona" tabloid stories.

Random Candy

2008-03-18T15:10:00.004+08:00

Here's a couple of things for you to feast your eyes (and ears on).

~ Ashton Kutcher shows off his man-meat in this photo taken from the new VMan magazine.

The concept's all Ashton's (does it matter?) and the man behind the lens is every celeb's best friend, Mario Testino.

~ One of music's coolest and underrated performers is Roisin Murphy, the one-time lead singer of dance collective Moloko. Her solo album, Overpowered, is out on EMI but given that label's restructuring/financial woes, this piece of brilliant work is all but lost.

But Roisin's done a 2nd video for the awesome single "You Know Me Better" and here it is for your discerning tastes and viewing pleasure.

Tuesday's go on forever sometimes, don't they?